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Fiona's got an armful of what looks like filthy rags and American style football pads, and the smell is unique, to say the least.  She dumps them on the foot of the bed, and heads for the wardrobe, rummaging around for a pair of boots to match.

She's stopped back by her room to pick up a few things on her way out, and to let Ramon know she's going on this mission.   It seems like they need their space for a few days, and she's trying not to think about the whole baby thing.

She keeps telling herself, he promised.  One fight does not mean the end of them.  Even one over something like this.  He promised.   (That niggling fear may have something to do with her decision to go rescue child slaves in the post-nuclear apocalypse world that Ellen calls home, but she'd never name it such.)
justcallmefee: (naked)
She's still smiling when she drifts awake.  Every inch of her body feels like she ran a marathon.  She's thirsty and achy and absolutely sated.  The morning sun filters through the curtains and she turns her head just enough to watch him sleeping.

There must be a giant space comet hurtling right for them, or the four horsemen of the Apocalypse.  Either way, she doesn't care.  She could stay like this forever, she thinks.  It's ridiculous how happy she is right now. 

Absolutely ridiculous.
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Ramon had spent a week in the cells, and she'd visited him every day.  Security had let her through the barrier to check on him, but only for a few minutes.  It'd been enough to see to it that he had enough pills to keep him set.  And a book or seven.  (She knows he likes to read, even if he'd never admit it out loud.)

She spent the week sleeping in her flat.  Well, not so much sleeping as doing battle with unconsciousness.  She'd barely eaten anything at all, and had taken to running like a woman possessed, doing ten miles a day easily.  She spent the other hours shadowboxing or working the heavy bag, anything to physically exhaust herself.  And in the end, it didn't matter.

Without him here, she had her first run of nightmares in a long time.  Once they had their teeth in her, they didn't seem to want to let go.  She dreamt of the cold dark hole, of feeling her fingers and toes go numb and grey with gangrene.  She dreamt of Michael McBride, laughing as he boarded a helicopter, taking off and trailing a stream of cash behind him over the dull brown rooftops of Dublin. 

She dreamt of making love to Ramon, of being beneath him, lost in that slow coiling ecstasy, when his body began to shift, grow heavier above her.  She felt her hands smoothing over the muscles of his back, feeling his skin turn into thick black fur.  She dreamt of the panther's jaws against her throat, felt the blood dripping off his teeth.  She felt the caress of his hands turn into the slice of his talons, felt him sink those teeth into her throat, felt her body jerk like a rag doll as he tore into her flesh.  That dream made her wake up screaming.

She dreamt of kissing his younger self, of looking into his dark eyes and seeing the depths of her heart there, reflected back to her.  A moment of real hope.  She dreamt of watching that light go out, and seeing him smirk at her, cold and distant. 

She dreamt of holding the infant Emanuel in her arms while he slept, her fingertip stroking his cheek.  In that dream, he slowly became transparent and faded away, leaving her holding nothing but an empty blanket.

So by the time he'd served his week and was done, his desire to return to the island was very much welcome.  She was drawn thin and tired from lack of sleep.  All she wanted to do was swim and doze on a beach towel in the brutal summer sun. 
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Fiona convinced him to come back to the island for the jacuzzi if nothing else.  Mostly she just wanted to get out of that stuffy little room where they kept stepping on each other all day.

She hasn't slept well since he got injured.  She's beginning to realise just how much she relies on him to wear her out so she can sleep.  She goes running before dawn, and stops to watch the sun come up, sitting on the few feet of dunes looking out over eastern approach to the island. 

Her thoughts run to all ends of the world and back again.  Trying not to think about his younger self and his bride (You can't hurt my son.) (He was taken...  we found his body the next day).  Trying not to think about Ramon.  The heroin use still haunts her.  And his casual admission the other day in the kitchen had cut a little deeper than she'd thought at first. Not 'I miss touching you.'  No, just 'I miss sex.'  Like anybody in the world would do.  (How can you love two people at once?) And trying not think about Michael and how even when she reaches out to him, they fight. (He'll kill you, Fi.

If only it was so simple.

She thinks she should go back in soon.  He'll be missing her.  In just another few minutes.  The sunrise is really breath taking.
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She comes back to the room with a box under one arm and a bag under the other.  She's wearing a white turtleneck and tan trousers over black riding boots.  Her hair is pulled back into a tight bun, and she's actually wearing glasses.  She heads for the kitchen, not even bothering to drop the box or bag.

She comes back out a moment later, empty-handed, and stops to look at him, sprawled in a chair, reading

"I got you something.  Have you ever learned how to make cortaditos?  It's a bit more complicated than boiling an egg, but well worth the effort."
justcallmefee: (working)
[ after this ]

He sleeps for a couple of hours and when he wakes up, his mental inventory tells him that a) the painkillers that doctor gave him must be still doing their job and b) the injury doesn't feel so...tight. A glance at it confirms the feeling, the swelling has gone down considerably.

'What happened?' he mumbles, a little disorientated.


She's dozing beside him, awake in an instant when she feels him shift.

"Healer.  No need for surgeon, now.  How's it feel?"
justcallmefee: (working)
[ after this ]

Fiona dozes off and on, waiting for him to wake up.  The rats brought up the ice she requested, and she put it away in the freezer.  She puttered around, cleaning up his clothes, tidying aimlessly before she comes back to lay down beside him.

She still thinks he should see a doctor, but it's not her call to make.  Maybe she could get him to go back through to the Bahamas, and bring in a private doctor, someone who doesn't know him.  She's terrified there might be long lasting implications from the injury, and she's terrified what that might mean for the two of them.

So she tries to sleep. 

Mostly she just watches him, willing him to be okay.
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[ cont'd from here ]

She lets herself back into the bar, one last long look over her shoulder.   The ache in her chest is a cold lead weight.  Lack of sleep and the adrenaline crash make every joint in her body complain. 

For a moment, she considers going back to Miami.  But Michael is still fixated on Carla and has no time to deal with her little bit of self-inflicted hell.

She can't go back to the Victoria Cays yet.  She can't face him, not after having made such a scene.  (Pathetic display of emotion, Fiona.  What kind of operative are you?)  She just wants a shower and a little bit of sleep.  She said far too much to his younger self, and she's certain she's going to catch hell for it.

It doesn't matter.  They had a good time, and ultimately, nothing has changed.  He knows about Random.  He knows he has his whole life ahead of him.

She's just a blip on the radar.

By the time she gets to her room, she feels like hammered shit.  She loops the chain around her knuckles a few time, remembering how close he held her at the end.   She's made it this far on her knees.  What's a little farther?
justcallmefee: (just a girl)
El carino que te tengo, yo te no lo puedo negar.  The love I have for you, I cannot deny.
Se me sale la babita, yo no lo puedo evitarMy mouth is watering, I just can't help myself.

[ lyrics Chan Chan - Buena Vista Social Club ]


She comes back from her trip to the bar and drops the bag she's carrying on the couch.  She heads straight for the bar, her face set in a fierce glare.  She finds the good whiskey and pours herself a generous two fingers, drinking it down in one go.  She leans against the counter, eyes closed, feeling the burn as it coats her throat and settles with a burst of warmth behind her breast bone.

She wants to cry.  She is not someone who allows herself to cry.  She takes another deep breath and pours again, not drinking it just yet.  This is not Sarajevo.  This is not Berlin.  This is not Dublin.  She's not bleeding or broken.  She's got all her fingers and both eyes.  She knows he's here, safe.  He doesn't love you.

For a long moment, she wants to call Michael.  But she can't hear more about Carla right now.  She can't be that person right now.

What the hell was she thinking?  What the fuck was she doing there? What the fuck is she doing here?  Where do you fit in, little Irish girl?

"Get it together," she hisses at herself, swirling the whiskey in the glass. 
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The house in the Bahamas is still lacking in a few things, so she'd come back to make a pick up.  She's ticking off a list in her head when she sees him in the hallway, wandering like he's looking for something.  His knuckles are bloody, his eye half swollen shut, and he has one hand curled around his mid section, holding broken ribs no doubt.  He's got a bottle of tequila in one hand, but it's still mostly full. 

She can't just let it be.  She can never just let it be.

She stops in the middle of the hall, weight cocked on one hip, her honey dark voice a playful drawl.

"Hey gorgeous."
justcallmefee: (searching)
"Actually it's two islands, not just the one, but they're close enough together it doesn't matter.  You'll see."

Fiona sets her bag down in front of her door and tucks a strand of hair back behind her shades.  She's got butterflies in her stomach, but she won't let him see that. 

It's an island in the Caribbean.  It's a twenty minute water taxi ride to the nearest town with a bar nice enough to carry his brand of tequila (she checked), and if he doesn't like it, they find him another one.  Simple as that.

(She wants it to be perfect.  Some place for the two of them, free of any history.  Free to write their own history.)

Her heel bounces in her stilettos and she smooths her dress down for the umpteenth time.

"Go on.  Try the key."
justcallmefee: (tell me more)
The bike alone had been enough incentive for her to find him something unique for his birthday, but it was the diamonds and rubies that had set the bar impossibly high.

No matter.   Just meant she had to get creative. 

The idea hit her when she was laying on the beach in the Caribbean inlet.  Barry did a little research for her, found a mark with a suitable piece of property.  The rest was all research and a little bit of practice at the poker table. 

Anthony De La Vina, big time real estate trader, small time gambler, owned a sweet little piece of property in the Bahamas.  Victoria Point Cays were two islands, totalling eight acres of paradise, with a private dock, and gorgeous little villa.  She got herself invited over for a party one weekend, just so she could give the place the hard once over.  It was exactly what she was looking for.

Well, okay, she did have to make some phone calls, and pressure Señor De La Vina's bookies into calling his markers, and making the man's life a living hell for a few weeks, but y'know, she enjoys her work.  When she had him desperate enough for cash, that's when she moved in for the kill.

Enrique planted the seed with a carefully dropped rumour, telling De La Vina all about the dashing European heiress known for losing millions at the card tables in Monaco, and how she was coming to Nassau for the weekend.   If he could only get into the high stakes game she was setting up, then he could get his life back.

She used the forged letters of credit to get a line with the house, and for the first hour or so, she lost most of it, knowing there was no way in hell he was going to walk away from the table.  She hadn't expected his best friend to join them, and the man seemed a lot more grounded than the mark. There was a tense moment when De La Vina's looked like he was going to listen to the man's advice, but the problem solved itself when he followed her to the loo.

Really, he'd get over it.  He'd walk with a limp for the rest of his life, but he'd get over it.

So she'd managed to stage a stunning comeback and win all her money back, and then all of his stake as well.  De La Vina was to the point of grovelling, and she thought about letting him off the hook -- for about half a second.    She asked if he had anything else to wager.  Something unique.  Something that no one else had.

Well, of course he did.  He had the Victoria Point Cays. 

The rest was history really.  She made him sign the deed over before the last card was turned, and one might think it was fitting that the Queen of Diamonds did him in.

Pesky details managed, she signed the deed over to a holding company in the name of Ramon Salazar.

The second part of the present was even harder to attain.  She had to beg and cajole and plead and whine and generally be a royal pain in the ass until Bar agreed, with some stiff stipulations attached.

The Key would only open a door to the main house on the island, and if he ever set foot on the mainland through that Door, both Key and Door would stop working.  Forever.  The Bar would never let him through again, and he'd be stranded in her world.  She had no illusions that Bar wasn't kidding.    It didn't mean he couldn't visit the mainland through her Door, so long as she opened it for him.

She printed out the pictures she'd taken, and had it all put together in a nice little portfolio with the Deed. 

She spent good long time just staring at it, wondering if he'd like it.  And wondering what Michael would say.
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She opens the door for him and lets him precede her through into the expansive marble foyer of a fantastically huge house. Their footsteps ring in the empty space.

"Right this way, sir. There are cocktails waiting by the pool." She waggles her eyebrows at him.
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Ramon~

I don't normally sit down to write letters, but I had some things I just wanted to get down.  I know I'm not good at expressing myself in person.   My emotions get all tangled up and the words just don't come out right.

I'm confused.  I don't understand what you want from me.

In the beginning, I thought you just wanted a good time.  A party girl.  It's why I said no for a long time.  I don't do party girl outside of assignments.  But the very first time we talked, you asked me how you could get me to trust you.  I told you, either it happened or it didn't.  I didn't trust you.  I have a hard time trusting anyone.  You of all people should understand that.

For the longest time, I thought the only reason you respected me was because you were afraid of what I'd do if you didn't.  (I think I threatened you with grievous bodily harm if you so much as looked at me wrong, but I do that to all the guys who think I'm just another pretty face.)

But then we went out.  And you kissed me in the median of the freeway.  You didn't grope, you didn't take advantage the first time you got me alone (I half expected you to), you didn't do anything but treat me like a lady.  You didn't assume I was arm candy.  You looked me in the eye and you talked to me, not to my tits.  And that kiss...

You scared the hell out of me.  Because I wanted you.  I wanted more of that attention, more of that -- fuck.  More of you.

From the beginning, the things coming out of your mouth and the things you were doing with your hands were in two different languages.  You'd talk about  sex, like it was just a mechanical thing.  'Ride it, suck it, put it in.'  Like that bit of flesh wasn't attached to the rest of you.  But it felt like the first lie, because when you touched me, when you kissed me....

See, I can't even put it into words.  I just don't know how.  I've had plenty of men.  After Michael left, the first time, I went through a string of them, trying them all out for size.  And you just --

Just the way you look at me messes me up more than anything.  It's hard to think straight when I think about that look.

That day when I took you to the warehouse.  I just needed cheering up.   Do you remember that day?  I do.  I remember being wrapped around you, I remember having you deep inside me.  I remember you holding me while I shook.  I remember you making love to me in that cramped little bed.  You got under my skin that day.  In ways I never thought possible.  Every time you touched me that day, it felt like love in your hands.

And every time since then. 

And in the stables, where you told me you thought I couldn't love you because of how I felt about Michael, I thought my heart couldn't hurt anymore.  I'd already dared to let myself believe and you -- I know, you're probably not even reading this anymore. 

Just let me tell you this one thing:  I have never felt more loved in my life than I did that moment in the stables when you put your arms around me and kissed me.  

I love you.  I don't care if you don't say it back.  I feel it when you touch me.  I see it in your eyes.

I know how you feel about me.

Words don't really matter.
justcallmefee: (stalking)
She packed a small bag with a handful of bikinis (the ones he'd bought her in Miami), and some toiletries.  She picked three of the gorgeous dresses he' d helped her pick out and threw them in her garment bag, along with the appropriate shoes.  Quick, easy, light.  (The 9mm goes in the outside of the bag, where she can get to it in a hurry.)

Her head is swimming with the idea of going away with him.  She's not giddy, per se, but there is an air of expectation about her. A certain intent purpose to her motions as she packs.

She rummages in the bookshelf and comes up with a brochure.  "I think I can get us an island hopper charter out of Miami."  She knows it won't be cheap, but that never seems to matter with him.  "Is this doable, you think?"

[ Part OnePart TwoPart ThreePart Four ]

justcallmefee: (watching you)
Sleep and Fiona had a longstanding tenuous relationship. Usually she was lucky to get six hours, and a late afternoon catnap. She'd slept better in the last few months than she had in the last decade, and she knew the reason why.

She comes awake slowly, easing up through the layers of sleep like a swimmer rising to the surface of a still, serene lake. She becomes aware of his scent first, breathing him in. Musk, with hints of tobacco and whiskey. His hand rests in the small of her back, and even in his sleep, he's kept her close. She's moulded to his side, her head resting on his shoulder, her arm around his waist, her knee draped over his thigh.

She takes a long slow breath, contracting gently around him, as if she's afraid he might get away.
justcallmefee: (i'm not telling)
It's Sunday in Miami, and Fiona has just come into a divine little bit of luck.  She'd heard the container had been unclaimed for some time, she did a little research, thinking it might be antiques or something similarly lucrative, but she never expected the beautiful long tail, pre-war Mercedes that emerged, dusty for certain, but by no means unsalvageable. 

The previous owner had taken meticulous care to preserve the engine for transport, and after a few hours of reattaching hoses and cleaning some connections, she was thrilled to hear the engine start right up.  Next thing it needed was a good cleaning, and she didn't trust it to a detail place.  Someone somewhere knew this car and until she'd done some research, she wasn't letting it out of her sight.

And that's why she's walking through the Bar towards her door, white tshirt and short shorts, with a bucket in one hand full of big soft sponges and a bunch of little brushes.  She smiles when she sees Ramon reading his papers and drinking his coffee.

"Enjoy your ride?"

justcallmefee: (drinking a beer)
Fiona bought charcoal, steaks, beer, and the stuff to make mojitos. She showered and picked out her favourite sunflower yellow sundress.

Of course, she had to jury rig a barbecue, using one of her neighbor's huge terracotta flower pots. (The evidence of said crime was at the bottom of the crevasse beneath the bridge.). And of course the wind is blowing just the wrong way so the smoke is filling up the house, but her solution is to open another window, get a crossbreeze going. There's some down low and dirty blues blasting from the living room.

She's standing over the makeshift grill (oven rack balanced precariously on top of the pot of flaming coals, steaks sizzling, and the bone dry balcony cowering and saying prayers that a stray ember doesn't send up the whole flat), sipping a beer, hair up off her neck, poking at the meat with a wicked looking knife.

Welcome back, Ramon.
justcallmefee: (just a girl)
After he'd changed back, she'd come home and dumped the duffle back in the wardrobe.  She's numb, blown apart.  She just wants a long hot bath and a twelve hour nap.

But presumably he'll come up after he's had time to talk to X, maybe with dinner. 

Which means she's dressed and anxiously awaiting the knock at the door.

justcallmefee: (sexy legs)
He pulls back to give her room to open the door but you can bet everything you have that his hands are on her ass the second she turns to put the key in the lock.

'Hurry up.'

He doesn't have to tell her twice.  She doesn't even close the door behind them, just pulls him through.  She's a whirlwind in his arms.  Her hands go around his neck and next thing he knows, her legs are wrapped around his waist as she kisses him, fierce and tender all in the same breath.
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